Shitbuggerfuck

I was reading a post from IF blogger Baby Smiling about blog deal breakers, and more than one reader commented that nothing makes them leave a blog quicker than profanity.

“Swearing. Not a fan. I think it reduces the written word to dirt” said Miss Conception on July 2. I beg to differ, Miss. I love swearing. Rather than “reduc[ing] the written word to dirt” I see it as an embellishment. An adornment even.

Fuck buggershit perfectly conveys how I felt this morning during my scan when the nurse told me that it looked as though my ovulation had been missed, meaning that depending on my test results this afternoon, I may not get to go ahead with my FET this cycle after all.

Despite telling the nurses at my clinic repeatedly that I was hardly even getting a control line on my take-home urine test kits (they are meant to indicate when a surge of Lutenising Hormone is present, which means ovulation should occur in the next 24 hours) I have only been having blood tests every 3 or so days.

My last test was on Thursday and while my levels were relatively low, a lot can happen in three days in the world of hormones.

Cunty twunty fuckstick was the obvious thought when she said my endometrial lining was only 5.4mm. That’s 3mm thinner than the scan I had over a week ago. The endo is supposed to get thicker!

I don’t think I am being monitored enough. I am almost on the verge of leaving this clinic TBH. The fact that my specialist takes phone calls on his mobile during appointments, gets up and leaves without saying goodbye (leaving his assistant to ussher us out), he didn’t tell me I had the homozygous MTHFR gene mutation and now this possible missed ovulation means I am ANNOYED.

But let’s just wait until they call back with the results this afternoon before making any hasty and rash decisions, mmkay!

I’m a homozygous MTHFR

You need to sing it to the tune of the Prince song, Sexy MF. I would link to YouTube, but Prince threatened to sue anyone who posted even a parody of one of his songs, so there isn’t even a karaoke rendition to be seen or heard.

Homozygous MTHFR you ask? I’m glad I did, c’est for sure!

Last year I had a bunch of bloodwork done when we switched specialists, and one of the tests came back indicating that I have the Methylene Tetrahydrofolate Reductase gene mutation. Homozygous, meaning I have inherited two copies of the variant (heterozygous is inheriting only a single copy). MTHFR for short (go on, say it aloud!).

The implications of this, are that I have  an increased risk of vascular disease, and possibly miscarriage. The MTHFR mutation is indicated in a lot of women who have had recurrent miscarriage. 5-15% of the population are homozygous for this gene mutation.

My sister, who is a midwife, was looking through my file notes ( I get copies of everything) and noticed the MTHFR result and asked me what my specialist had done about it. Most of her women with it are on high dose folate and baby aspirin at the least, and anti-coagulants such as  clexane at the upper end. My Dr hadn’t even mentioned that I had the mutation!

So I brought it up yesterday at my appointment, which was actually with a different Dr. While giving me the usual non-committal “it’s not 100% proven”  spiel, she made a few phone calls to see what other Drs had to say. The result is that I am now on 5mg of Folic Acid (ten times my previous dose) with further assessment if I do get pregnant. I don’t really have a family history of blood clots, and my homocysteine level was moderate, which is good.

Glad I brought it up!

So the good news, is that I am doing a Frozen Embryo Transfer (FET) THIS CYCLE!!!! I went in just to plan for the next cycle and she signed me up to do a FET right away. I am on CD11 right now, so transfer could be as early as next week. Excite!

I am doing a “natural” cycle which means I am doing daily urine tests to monitor the level of Lutenising Hormone (LH). A surge in LH indicates that ovulation is imminent. The embryo is then thawed and transferred a few days later. And hopefully two weeks after that, I get a positive pregnancy test!

The good thing about FETs is that she said I can do them all back-to-back if the cycles are unsuccessful. And if none of the four frozen embryos work, I should just scrape in another stimulated cycle before the end of the year. Pessimist, aren’t I? I just like to have plans and know what is going on.